This was originally for facebook. My very special friend.

I have an amazing person in my life. They've been there through thick and thin for almost two years now and I don't want to say who, but they've never let me down (not gonna give them up) and I've pushed them away out of sheer guilt of it in the past but that also encourages me to be stronger.

I don't like relying on people in fear of being considered clingy and they walk away eventually, but they haven't and they still reassure me when I feel like a burden to them and I believe them a tiny bit more each time because its true, they're still there.

They've saved me countless of times too. Truly they're the person I've always needed and life would be very dark a without them.

I've always been there for them too, don't get me wrong, they know this too. It's give as good as you get for me, and sometimes I give a lot more (generally speaking.)

For someone who is paranoid, nervous, anxious, sentimental, sensitive, lacks faith and lacks trust, I am extremely lucky that they have never changed how they feel about me, because it's very easy to put myself down for my weaknesses and even that is a weakness itself. This is a shout out to the world how important they are and how I don't need to be in a relationship with them because it doesn't matter.

They know who they are without me telling them, it makes me feel so much better having this little rant where people will read it and know that feeling with someone they have in their life, even family or friends  So appreciate your loved ones, go and hug them and tell them you love them, because you don't need a reason to do that and the best times are when it's unexpected.

PS. We all like to be told we're loved, to know we don't need to feel lonely when life is so short. People are absolutely priceless when you invest so much emotion into them and there's no words or ways to express that other than to spend more time together and love each other stronger than fear itself. Love conquers all I believe.

I also have friends I appreciate and love so much, I'm terrible at showing it because I get afraid sometimes, but they hopefully do know it and I remind them when I can. I couldn't do it without them either.

I have tried different types of relationships while this person has been in my life, but at the end of the day I just want him for the reasons men brings above and their personality. I have made excuses and not known why I've felt his I have, but I realise all I can do is love other people than him and not commit to anything because it just leads back to him at the end of the day, no natter what.

Maybe there's a special kind of person I can make that work with, but I haven't found them and when you're happy with what you have in terms of that main person that's there for you,  then you don't want anyone else to rely all of your being on.

Again, I say all this and I also keep in mind for much I'm there for them if they need me or wasn't me or even want a rant. I owe it to them and even enjoy being able to return favours.