Me. Take it or leave it.

• I like routine that I find enjoyable and relaxing.
• I hate predictability. The type that makes everything dull, you know it won't change.
• I struggle to understand people at the best of times.
• I don't like losing people I love in my life at all.
• I don't like being alone.
• I like having my own space.
• I struggle to make sense to someone.
• I think with common sense. That's the only way I can understand; when it makes sense.
• I am sentimental.
• I am romantic.
• If I get my hopes up or excited when plans are made, I can't stand the disappointment if let down without a good reason.
• I sometimes hope someone will surprise me. 
• Small things make a big difference.
• I take note of every little detail of someone if I don't feel safe.
• I'm paranoid as hell.
• I think about how other people think to try to understand them.
• I feel claustrophobic when someone is too close in my space.
• I contradict myself a lot.  
• I make lots of mistakes but I learn from them.
• I reflect a lot.
• I am endearing.
• I am a nihilist.
• I am a pessimist but try to be an optimist.
• I repeat myself a lot. 
• I am passionate. I like to live in the moment.
• I love crazy people who get what I mean, do silly things, take pictures together etc.
• I love the feeling when you can mock insult each other as a way to show you care. 
• I find it difficult to distract myself from thinking all the time, over analysing.
• I am reckless, impulsive and destructive.
• I am an extremist; nothing or everything/all of it. I hate it.
• I freak out if I am not in control or feel overwhelmed.
• I freak if things don't seem okay between myself and a loved one.
• I hate caring for someone or loving.
• I want to be included and accepted for who I am.
• I put myself down a lot.
• I love who I am because only I understand me.
• I feel guilty about a lot of things about myself.
• I have to be given a lot of chances or be understood enough for me to trust.
• I don't trust many people, barely myself.
• I don't put faith in people either.
• I feel alone most of the time.
• I appreciate those who 'deal/tolerate' me and can explain something to me so I understand.
• I feel guilty if I require reassurance, and struggle to believe it's okay with someone to do that.
• I take a lot of things personally.
• I am highly sensitive.
• I struggle to concentrate.
• I remember specific things.
• I make notes, make sure my calendar is up to date, organise things to avoid panicking in the future.
• I will think of nice things to do, buy, make or say to someone I love.
• If I struggle to understand, my brain goes blank and I get scared and freaked out, then repeat.
• I always try to be better but don't know how unless someone can point it out to me.
• I am scared of not being good enough.
• I am scared of pushing those I love away, yet still persist because I want to be understood and understand so I can trust them, I have to know how they feel about me.
• I hate rules. Specifically the ones people make about each other.
• I hate rules. Such as that it's wrong or right to do whatever with someone, if you're both comfortable/want it, then it's fine.
• I hate it when someone isn't honest because they don't want to hurt me. I'll have a discussion about it instead so I can understand, if I can have that discussion.
• I am there for those I love and care for if they need me, I will charge in and be there for them.
• My mind goes blank when I panic.
• I get scared of talking to people and hide.
• I believe people are sometimes better off without me. 
• My strength is in protecting and being there for those people.
• I hate being ignored.
• I check my friends are okay and around when I can.
• I feel guilty if I ignore someone intentionally.  
• I get easily confused.
• I hate how to be a friend, you have to leave them alone.
• I hate when it's apparently wrong or right to do something based on popular belief than your own. Therefore influencing your decision or doubting.
• I doubt myself a lot, which freaks me out.
• I hate being pressured by someone with their own agenda and doesn't listen to my reasons. I'll answer their questions and be patient.
• I'm easily emotionally manipulated.
• I love to talk about things with someone who gets it too.
• I like to be silly with the right person that gets me.
• I prefer to give one person everything I have.
• I don't think of my future being marriage and kids. I live each day and the short term future.
• I am extremely impatient if I don't understand something or I am agitated/waiting for someone.
• I care about what others think.
• I don't care what the public think.
• I love to go on adventures.
• Prodctivity makes me feel good.